Monday, December 7, 2009

God alone

"Whom have I in heaven but You? And besides You, I desire nothing on earth. My flesh and my heart fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."
Psalm 73:25-26

There is really nothing like a trial to remind you what you're trusting in. It is when the pillars of your life come crumbling down that you realize that all of the earthly things you were trusting in can and will fail you. It is when the storms come crashing over your head and threaten to drown you that you have no choice but to cry out, "Lord, save me!" (Matt. 14:30) Even though the pain is unbelievable and life seems the most hopeless, there is an odd, paradoxical sense of desperate serenity. God is good and God is faithful.

For Christ,
Daniel

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Sons of God

"For all who are being led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God."
Romans 8:14

Assurance of salvation, or rather lack of it, is something that plagues the mind of many Christians. Not all the time, but often this doubt stems from our great general failure to live our lives according to the will of God. If you have been saved, you have indeed been born again by the Spirit of God and God will "cause you to walk in [His] statutes" (Ezekiel 36:27). However, we still sin. In fact, one of the evidences of salvation that the apostle John gives in his letter is that we are conscious and repentant of our sin (1 John 1:8-10).

But to sin is one thing. How can we be saved if our days are marked by incessant sin? Are we really alive in Christ? This is a question that many Christians have struggled with throughout the centuries. Paul knew this agony very well: "Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death?" (Romans 7:24) A few verses later, however, Paul gave the answer. If we are being led by the Spirit of God, then we are children of God. I struggle so much with my sin it makes me sick; literally, some times. Yet I see the hand of God upon my life. I see God convicting me of sin. When I am stubborn in my sin He will not let me go but "[His] hand [is] heavy upon me" (Psalm 32:4). Therefore, on the authority of scripture I can say without fear of arrogance that God has "wrapped me with a robe of righteousness" (Isaiah 61:10).

Take a look at your life. Is God in it? I'm not talking about sinless perfection. Is the Holy Spirit leading you? Do you see the signs of a great and merciful God with His hand upon your shoulder guiding you along? Then you are a child of God.

For Christ,
Daniel

Thursday, October 8, 2009

The Lord delivered me

"O LORD my God, I cried to You for help, and You healed me. O LORD, You have brought up my soul from Sheol; You have kept me alive, that I would not go down to the pit."
Psalm 30:2-3

Today was the two year anniversary of the start of my spiritual depression. October 7, 2007 was the day my life broke. That's really the only way to describe it. A little while into the depression a close friend of mine told me that when the depression was over I was going to be a different person. How right she was.

I cannot tell you the changes God has wrought in me these past two years. I have grown so much in my walk with the Lord I can't even remember what my life was like before all this began.

How appropriate, then, that my devotion for today should be Psalm 30. Earlier tonight I started reading the psalm out loud and I got a few verses in before I started laughing. What a perfect description of my life this psalm is. I cried out to God and He delivered me. It wasn't painless. It wasn't overnight. I have suffered more than I ever thought I could bear. Yet looking back I can see the mighty hand of God upon my life throughout this trial.

If you are going through something similar right now, know this: Your God will deliver you. He will. You will praise Him again (Psalm 42:5).

"You have turned for me my mourning into dancing; You have loosed my sackcloth and girded me with gladness, that my soul may sing praise to You and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give thanks to You forever."
Psalm 30:11-12

For Christ,
Daniel

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Sing! Fight!

"The LORD will command his lovingkindness in the daytime; and His song will be with me in the night, a prayer to the God of my life."
Psalm 42:8

Spiritual depression is a war. Though we are told many times in the Bible to wait for God (e.g. Psalm 130:5), we are not to be idle in the meantime. I used to think that my Christian walk could be put on hold while I was depressed. I wanted to close my eyes, grit my teeth, and wait for the whole thing to end. But that is not what the Bible teaches. We are supposed to fight. If you are suffering from doubts and/or spiritual deadness, don't throw your hands up in the air. God has gifted us with spiritual weapons. There are several that can be named, but I want to focus on one in particular: singing. Yes, you read that right.

Psalm 42 is one of the depression psalms. We don't know exactly what situation the psalmist was in, but we can tell that he felt the awful absence of God's presence. In verses 1 and 2 he likened the experience to dying of thirst. The Lord had given him a heart of flesh (Ezek. 36:26) that was designed to desire God. Without the sustenance of God's communion the psalmist had begun to wither. Yet despite his suffering he was not inactive. Not only did he pray, but he prayed with a song.

In the middle of a plane flight the other day, a wave of depression hit me. Providentially, I happened to have a hymnal in my carry on. I cracked that open and started reading. If I came upon a hymn I was familiar with I sang it quietly to myself. When I had read that for a while I got my Bible out and started reading the Psalms. It was hard, but it worked. The depression lifted. I had won my spiritual battle.

In the past, I ran from such battles through sleep. The world was too painful and so I resolved to get out of the world. I do not recommend this at all. I am now resolved to never let my depression best me. This is a war and I intend to fight.

For Christ,
Daniel

Sunday, August 9, 2009

What are we striving for?

"More than that, I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them but rubbish so that I may gain Christ..."
Philippians 3:8

Do you realize that within 60 years you will be in heaven? I believe often when we think about being in heaven we sort of imagine it as this nice place we'll get to some time in the distant future. However, when you think that it will be just a few short decades before we stand there before our Maker it really puts things in perspective. Suddenly, life seems a lot shorter, the days more important. We were put here for a purpose, and it was not to simply coast through life and at the end of the ride we get a fun place to hang out for all eternity. Paul described himself as a slave of Christ (Phil. 1:1). We are "not [our] own" (1 Cor. 6:19). We belong to another.

But what really should motivate us? Is it a legalistic sense of duty to a distant and impersonal master? Not at all. Paul said it so perfectly in Philippians 3:8. He counted all that he had lost as worthless things in order that he could gain Christ. What was he striving for? Was it streets of gold or gates of pearl? Hardly. He wanted Christ. That was the reward at the end of the race that he was running towards. David would have agreed. "The Lord is the portion of my inheritance and my cup..." (Psalm 16:5) The author of Hebrews encouraged his readers to "fix [their] eyes on Jesus..." (Heb. 12:2) Heaven will be wonderful because of He who is there.

It seems so simple. After all, "Jesus" is the Sunday school answer. But why? Have you ever considered why Jesus is the end goal? Of course Jesus is wonderful, but why is it enough to say that He is our reward? Even though the question sounds wrong to utter, it needs to be asked: What's so great about being with Jesus?

Our Lord Himself gave the answer when He was on the way to the Mount of Olives just before His arrest. Chapters 15 and 16 of the gospel of John form one of my favorite passages in the Bible. Jesus in a short while will be arrested, abandoned, mocked, tortured, crucified, and ultimately forsaken by His Father as He bore the sins of His people. Yet He spends this time lovingly encouraging His friends, because their life is about to get a lot harder. Up until this point, God had been restraining the evil intentions of those who opposed Christ. There had been no murder attempts made on the apostles' lives. They hadn't been brought before the Sanhedrin yet and been beaten. However, all this was going to change. Jesus was going away and the enemies of God would rain all their hatred down upon His followers. Jesus doesn't sugarcoat the situation. He told them plainly, "Truly, truly, I say to you, that you will weep and lament, but the world will rejoice..." (John 16:20) But our Lord didn't leave them without encouragement. In verse 22 He said, "Therefore you too have grief now; but I will see you again and your heart will rejoice, and no one will take your joy away from you."

Did you see that? This suffering that Christ promised isn't a mild annoyance. It isn't "a rough patch". He predicted weeping and utter sorrow. John of the Cross described it aptly as "the long dark night of the soul", the times in your life when things seem the most hopeless and God feels the most far away. So what did He give His disciples in order to encourage them? He gave them the promise of Himself. We suffer in this life, but our hearts will rejoice when we see Christ. We won't rejoice when our wounds are healed. We won't rejoice when we are reunited with our deceased love ones. We will rejoice at the sight of our Savior.

Verse 23 I believe puts the finishing touch on this wonderful promise of Jesus. He said, "In that day you will not question Me about anything." Now wait a minute. This life is too hard. There are things that happen to us that we don't understand. Children die. Friends fail us. Professing Christians of long years suddenly turn their back on their faith, causing us to doubt the authenticity of our own. If that weren't bad enough, often when the pain gets the most real God seems to leave. Our prayers become dead, our devotions become fruitless, and we can't seem to muster up the slightest joy about anything. We know that God has a plan, but we just want to walk up to God's throne and scream out, "Why? Why did You do this? Wasn't there a better way?" But Jesus said that we won't ask Him these things when we see Him. We have all these questions now but we won't then. We will be satisfied with the infinite glories and beauty of Christ. We will look into His face and know that our Redeemer reigns and that He has done all things perfectly. Although this is not Scripture, C.S. Lewis got it right in his masterpiece, "Till We Have Faces", when he said, "I know now, Lord, why You utter no answer. You are Yourself the answer. Before Your face questions die away. What other answer would suffice?"

What is our reward? What are we persevering for? Christ. And that is enough.

For Christ,
Daniel

Monday, June 15, 2009

Study through Acts

Yeah, there's no verse for this post. That's because, instead of giving a treatise on a particular aspect of the Christian life, I want to tell you about what I've been enjoying in the Word recently.

My devotionals have consisted recently of going through the book of Acts one chapter at a time and taking notes in my journal. I would say "one chapter a day" but I still have not attained a disciplined attitude toward reading the Bible on a consistent basis, which I am very embarrassed by.

Anyway, Acts has been a real eye-opener for me. One thing that has really stuck out at me is how much the first Christians prayed. We are taught as children to say our prayers before we go to bed. We pray before and after a sermon. We pray before meals. All these things are wonderful and godly and I do not want in any way to criticize such practices. However, what I see in the book of Acts is a reliance upon prayer that was almost completely foreign to my life several months ago. Luke uses phrases like "continually devoting themselves to prayer" (Acts 1:14) and prayer "being made fervently" (Acts 12:5). A lot of times I pray because I feel that I'm supposed to. In a sense, that is true. Jesus did command us to pray (Luke 18:1). However, these early Christians believed in the power of prayer. That quote I gave from Acts 12:5 was from when Peter was thrown in prison by Herod to be executed. The saints were up all night praying for him. What happened? He was released! "The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much." (James 5:16) Keep in mind that what they were praying for was, by all worldly measures, impossible. Herod had already killed James the son of Zebedee and was planning on doing the same to Peter. Peter was under lock and key with guards sleeping next to him. There was no earthly way that circumstances would come together so that Peter would be released. An angel had to come and physically remove Peter from his chains, open the gates of the prison, all the while keeping the guards from waking up. No problem for God. Pray for the "impossible" and do it often.

One last thing. I was planning on reading through Psalms after I finished Acts. However, with seven chapters left to go I became impatient and did my study on Psalm 1 earlier tonight. Wow! If this Psalm is typical of the rest of the book, I am in for a real treat! I'll probably post something about it later this week.

For Christ,
Daniel

Friday, March 27, 2009

Read the word

"In pointing out these things to the brethren, you will be a good servant of Christ Jesus, constantly nourished on the words of the faith and of the sound doctrine which you have been following."
1 Timothy 4:6

Sometimes, I believe, we Christians don't hold the Bible to be as important as it really is. We read it (or have it read to us) in Sunday school or church, learn the important points, and that's it. We pick it up again whenever we go to church so we can follow along, or whenever we feel compelled to get our "religious duty" out of the way. I know that I have been guilty of this a lot.

We should never allow ourselves to fall into this mindset. Meditating (note that this means more than just reading) on the word of God is not supposed to be a burden, but a joy. Take Psalm 119. It is all about the Psalmist's love for the law of God. It is not merely a handful of sentences that he devotes to the subject, either. It is the longest chapter in the Bible: 176 verses. How could someone go on for that long on the law of God? How much did he love the law? Consider verses 97 and 98: "O how I love your law! It is my meditation all the day. Your commandments make me wiser than my enemies, for they are ever mine." According to 2 Timothy 3:16, the Scripture is "for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness; so that the man of God may be adequate, equipped for every good work." We study Scripture lovingly because through it we are equipped with divine weaponry (Eph. 6:17), making us useful for the service of God and the ministering to of our fellow saints. Let me beat this dead horse a little more. "For it is not an idle word for you; indeed it is your life. And by this word you will prolong your days in the land..." (Deut. 32:47) I could keep going, but if I were to list every similar verse I'd be here all day.

I cannot stress enough how crucial this is. We need to meditate on the word of God "day and night." (Psalm 1:2) In addition to its instructional worth, it is also an incredible source of encouragement. I wish I had the words to fully explain myself, but I urge you to test this for yourself. Read the word every day. Pray over it. Meditate on what you have read throughout the day. Any person who enjoys good food as much as I do knows that a truly fine meal is with you throughout the rest of the night. Even though the taste may have faded from your mouth, the memory lingers for hours (and sometimes days), bringing a perpetual smile to your face. The same principle applies to the word of God. Have you noticed that the Bible speaks in food metaphors as well? "O taste and see that the Lord is good..." (Psalm 34:8) I can testify that this is a blessed truth.

For Christ,
Daniel